LET GO

You know it's time...

but who can you know when to let go, or how to let go?

We try to take the good things to not be mad at him the whole time, to not be mad at you the whole time, we take the bad things to not let the good things trick you and make you wish get back on track, then you re-take the good things to not be mad at your self all over again an realize you were as dumb as he was; of course for a completely difrente reason...

That after all its the same reason in every relationship, regardless to the individual situations that keep everybody in this world alive, BELIEVE.

Believe in love, believe in the word of someone you care, believe you can experience the world just by reading, believe that finishing a career will guaranty you an economical stability and all that kind of crap..

we've all been there, hoping the signals we ignore are not true, wishing the obvious lies are actually trues and forcing our minds to be at the same page as our hearts, beliving in "the guy"; the one that it's driving us crazy, and make us feel pretty, who made us laugh and smille even when he was not around... and we though about it; over and over again and think is not possible that "that guy" that hold my hand and wish me good nights it's not so different from every other guy... who lies and cheats without regrets... but isn't that just a quality of human nature lie and pretend everything it's fine?, because we are even worst liars because we lie to our selfs, pushing every button of optimism to get a fake smille and disregard all the facts...

The fact that he's laying, or that he will never change, that our difrences are not helping us grow that actually are just making us get even more lost, in this infinite wold of relationships...

But why it's so hard just lo let go, we cry, we think in all the random possibilities of why didn't work or what you could have done differently, but it's not about this relationship, it's not about "the guy"... it's about failure, because no one absolutly no one wants to fail specially fail in love, we all want to have the corny fairy tale and the famously know happily ever after...

But after a bunch of love movies, and chocolates, and tequila shots and insults to all the man kind... I realized the must important relationship I have it's with me...

So fuck it... for all I been through, and all I gave, the last thing I need is a douchebag like him, because no kisses or hugs worth the effort of me pretending I'm stupid...

So the day you take the wise decision of not be stupid you will as well take the determination of not going back there...